I’m at that age where confusion occupies my mind every second of every day. Am I going in the right direction in my life? Is it wrong to be doing certain things? Why this? Why that? Am I not close enough to God? Am I doing the things I should be doing to please the Lord? At the end of the day, you just want to do things according to the God’s Words. If I am doing all those things, will He help me to direct my life? Because I seriously don’t know where I’m going.
This is where we are right now, as a whole; no living entity is left out of the loop. We are all experiencing an existence based on a thin veneer of lies & illusions. A reality where greed is godlike & generosity is sin, where division is orderly & unity is communism, where the ego driven cleverness of the mind is praised, rather than the humble wisdom of the heart.
I just need to pour my heart out. It breaks my heart that it has to end like this. But know that I care for you so much that I wanted all good things. I wish you no harm. I think this is for the best. I believe that God is planning better things for us in His own ways according to our own lifestyle. Be strong and focus on heaven because that’s what you taught me. Just know that it was really hard for me to do.
Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand
Don’t worry about tomorrow.